I could cry and scream your name into the night
without you ever hearing my desperation

have I ever held honesty
with anyone

I love you

I silently plead Christ for your eyes
they burn through me
like a fiery dagger
forcing the tears in my eyes to swell
but never fall

bearing my thoughts
forces my soul to quiver in fear

hands that have clinched my existence
haunt my dreams

memories cause hollowness

i have kept everything
especially the fear
of myself
in your fiery
                   caring
                          sacred light
reach for me
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